what I'm listening to. . . .

Spirit of the Season, with the Mormon Tabernacle Choir and Sissel(I love, love Sissel's voice and I love track 2, Wexford Carol)

A Tenor's Christmas

(What can I say? I know it is very classical (aka nerdy), but I am a sucker for an awesome tenor!)

signs of the time

Wow, I totally must be pregnant. I can not even drive 10 blocks without crying--you see, my radio dial is tuned into 'The Breeze', Utah's Christmas Music Headquarters, of course. I swear I tear up at every single song. . . .sad, but true.

I'm hooked. . . .

(and how couldn't you be with a look like that?)

I've been remarkably absent from the couch in front of my T.V. for a few months now (you know, lying in bed, feelin' kinda crappy instead--sob, sob), BUT I've discovered this show and we are totally addicted to it now. It's called The Mentalist and is on at 8:00 PM, Tuesday on CBS here.

Basically, the main character-- Patrick Jane-- was happily living his life as a prominent and outspoken psychic. Then his wife and daughter were murdered by a serial killer who was trying to make a point. You see, Jane had been bragging about his work as a psychic specialist for CBI (California Bureau of Investigation--does this really exist?). The killer left him a note that asked him if he really was a psychic, why didn't he see his family's fate?

Well, this tragedy totally turned Jane into a crime fighting machine. He has dropped his celebrity psychic status and now works full time for CBI solving cases. He admits now that he was never psychic, rather a very observant person and an extremely good actor. He uses these skills to solve cases in an unorthodox, unexpected, and entertaining manner.

I like the show because Jane is such a smooth talker, but is the biggest sissy ever. He has been 'saved' on multiple occasions by his fellow agents. He comes up with the craziest ways to bate people and catch the culprits of the crime. I am also hooked because I like the side characters-- the other agents. There is some unspoken romantic tension between Jane and his boss lady (can't remember her name). There are a couple of other agents that have a thing for each other and Jane teases them. I like the banter between everyone.

Can you tell I like this show? Try it, I think you'll like it, too.

Dear Macy's Executive,

I was thrilled to get your 53 page ad in the mail today regarding your ONEDAYSALE. I would, however, like a few things explained to me. First, if you will flip your ad to page 40 with me, you will see that the title of the page is, "ALL MEN'S GROOMING ON SALE." My problem is that contained within this page are pictures of such items as a Shark Power Sweeper and a Rowenta Effective iron. The last time I checked in on my man, he had very little to do with the ironing or sweeping in our home--so either your ad is at fault or my husband is a woefully inept Groomer.


In addition, as you flip with me to the cover of the ad, you will see that the Preview day for your sale is listed as an entire day before the actual Public sale date of Saturday, December 6th. If I understand correctly, a preview day is simply an additional day of sale prices. Therefore my reasoning tells me that your ONEDAYSALE will, in all honesty, be running for two days. So, perhaps you need to have a word with your advertising department.

Thank you for your time.

Sincerely,
A confused suburban mother of 3

those unforgettable moments

Today as I rounded the corner into the kitchen I caught Eliza spraying 'I Can't Believe It's Not Butter' directly into Roger's mouth. I could not believe that I was actually witnessing this blessed event. I scolded Eliza and took the bottle away, but alas, Roger was hooked. He started to cry like I had just taken away a half-eaten lollipop!!

At this point, I had two choices, 1) I could ignore the crying and stick to my guns or 2) I could let him have the spray-butter back. A little voice in my head rung out to me. "Pick your battles," it said. I then decided this was a battle I was willing to loose--on certain terms. I grabbed a plate and sprayed a thin layer of fake, salty butter over the top and gave it to my one-year-old. He happily sat at the table and licked the plate clean (by the way, Eliza did not want to be left out and she, too, had a plate of spray butter).

Do you ever have those moments where your kids just totally gross you out-- you know, you are at church and your toddler has a poo-ooze-out all over the nursery floor? At moments like these you understand those movies when the main character is walking along the sidewalk and every bad child they encounter is freeze-framed in some obnoxious or otherwise undesirable behavior. The character is totally agast at why any sane person would be willing to have children of their own.

But, somehow, when it is your own child, it is different. Despite all the irritating stuff your kids' do, you just are addicted to them. Your life revolves around them. You just want to talk about them all the time. All the bad stuff is there, but the good and cute things they do outweigh the negatives.

People say that you never know now much your parents love you until you have kids, and it is SO true!! I also feel a lot more empathy towards lay people I encounter in random situations- "Gee, they must be pretty special. Their parent's love them as much as I love my kids."

This Thanksgiving was a great event with my wonderful parents, my siblings, my aunts and uncles (who, by the way, are GREAT cooks), some cousins, and my Grandma. I am so grateful for the opportunity I have to be surrounded by these people who care. I love the familiar sound of my Aunt Dawn's laugh reflected in her daughter--my cousin Janet. I love it when my Grandma calls me Milly (she has since I was little). I love my Uncle Craig who is seriously one of the most attentive and empathetic men I've met-- he always looks me earnestly and asks me how I've been. I love listening to my Aunt DD's sayings and then realizing where her 5 daughters (my great cousins) got it from. I loved getting to know my cousin Gwen's new husband. I love singing songs and hymns surrounded by the people I love. I truly feel blessed to be a part of a family who has loved me despite my stupid and abnoxious moments (and there have been plenty of those, for sure)!!! I am so grateful I could just soak up these moments.

Milkless

I swear I run out of milk EVERY Saturday night.

Musings on an ob/gyn appointment

My good friend Bonnie doesn't really think twice about a visit to the ob/gyn. She just knows everyone has to do it, and the doctors' have seen it all--the good, the bad, and the ugly. She knows she just falls somewhere in between (hopefully not on the spectrum of the ugly).

I wish I could be like that. I think it is quite possible I overthink the situation entirely. Last night I was in the shower scrubbing and shaving away (sorry to you men out there who just read that). "Really," I thought to myself, "Am I doing this right? Have I sufficiently prepared myself to bare (no pun intended) these precious, private parts to a total stranger?" What about a careful trim--does that just look ridiculous? Does it look like I am trying too hard if I slather myself with lotion? And really, what would I being 'trying too hard' to accomplish? To not look like some freak of nature, I suppose. I mean, it is not like most of us are intimately aquainted with that part of each other's bodies, so how do I even know if I am normal or not?

I don't think there is a how-to book about preparing for said yearly exam. For instance, do you talk to your doctor while he is, uh-hmm, placing the speculum (ahh, can you believe I said that)? When is small talk okay? If you engage in small-talk, do you come across nervous? Or silly? Or just like a woman who doesn't know when to shut up? I am uncertain about the laws of etiquette in such a strange situation.

I mean, when does real-life ever prepare you for this? "Hi, I'm Dr. Sharp. Nice to meet you."

"Yes, nice to meet you. I am Camilla." The conversation continues for a few minutes while Dr. Sharp answers all of my burning questions (fortunately, today my questions were not literally burning questions) and then politely asks me to, well, spread 'em. Yep, that was 5 minutes from hello--seriously must be a record.

When I was younger, I thought that booking a female gyn might make the situation better--but, sadly, I must declare I was equally uncomfortable. There is just something very odd about the whole thing.

In the meantime, I am just glad I got that one over with today and unfortunately will have to accept this uncomfortable scenario as one of the more unpleasant parts of being a woman.

Cat is out of the Bag. . .

Yes, folks, I have some news, but some people in the neighborhood have already guessed. I have been puking almost daily and can barely drag myself out of bed in the morning. Yep, I am the happy (nervous) mom who got to hear the heartbeat of Millar baby #4 today.

I am having very mixed feelings here. First, I would like everyone to know that, yes, we must be crazy to have four kids before D finishes his LONG residency. I truly don't know how we will survive, but--survive, we must. My mom reminded me that this is a train I can't get off of now, so I better start enjoying the ride (so cliche', but so true).

For those who are wondering, this will make Roger and the new one 28 months apart. Not a shockingly close amount, but still close in my book. The good news is that after Roger was born, I knew I wanted at least one more--so here it is. Wish me luck till June. . . .

Sympathy pains

I just need a little "oh that stinks" from everyone out there for this: we found Roger putting pennies into the car CD player this morning--I can't even put a CD in anymore.

Twilight

Yep, I was the winner of a ticket to Twilight yesterday from my niece, Quinci. Thanks, Quinc. We had a great time--though I was super late because of crazy traffic on the freeway and missed standing in line and hangin out before the movie.

WARNING FOR DIE-HARD TWILIGHT FANS: SPOILER

My opinion: The movie was entertaining and it was fun to watch the book come to life. My major beefs were: 1) I thought the special effects were very low-budget. 2) I just couldn't get over the fact that the actor playing Edward looked like he was wearing heavy make-up in every scene (sorry, that pretty boy thing just isn't for me!). Actually, now that I think about it--all of the Cullen's make-up was cheesy and fake. 3) I thought the romance between Bella and Edward came off a little thin-- I truly didn't believe from the screenplay that they actually could be in love with each other from their minimal interactions--just seemed like a flimsy teenage crush to me (sorry!)

Sorry if this offends, it's just my opinion!